dessert to medication

my relatives from Detroit came for a visit a couple of weeks ago, as a result of my grandmother's cousin arriving two weeks prior. we went out doing the usual tourist things. and had the night of karaoke (see entry named: karaoke mania)

one night during dinner, while bouncing in and out of consciousness, i was catching bits and pieces of their "catching up" conversation. when i suddenly hear...

"do u have this one? the glycosomin? it helps with my sugar level. you should try!"

you know you're getting old when u start talking about your medication like it's dessert.

what my friends and i say:
"have you tried that "So Good" cake at jDs? it's sooooo good! it's healing food, it's healing food!"

what my friends and i say (plus 60 years):
"did you try that new muscle relaxant? the doctor gave me free samples! you should try! it really heals my arthritis! it heals!"

i can't wait until i start talking about my meds with my best friends.

literally retarded

when you get emails, do you read the email? i know i do. when you send an email do you read what you sent afterwards? sometimes i'm guilty of this too.

but what if there's an attachment? that' s too exciting for some people. skip to the attachment! skip to the attachment! the words that go with the email can't be all that important if they attached something! RIGHT? RIGHT? wrong! HORRIBLY WRONG!

i'm all for the visually inclined, heck if it weren't for you i'd be out of a job. but sometimes, you see words and it's like "wah wah wah wah wah" coming from Charlie Brown's teacher! and that's frustrating, for you because you have to move your eyes and think and put together letter after letter, word after word, sentence after GOD GIVING sentence! and that is too much right now; and for me, because i didn't type things out just so i could practice my typing skills, there was an actual point! it's there for a reason. and then you reply back completely disregarding what i mentioned in my email? i was nice in the email. and it was all laid out in an organized manner, and what now?? well now, now i make fun of you because you go to one of the highest academic university's in Ontario, and simple HTML programming seems to rack your brain. which really isn't a surprise because, well heck! you don't read emails! why would you pick up and read a programming book? some of them have pictures too! :P

reading is like milk, it does a body good. or at least a vital part of the body. go brain go!

super D

this weekend was not a good one. the "D" often used to describe defense is not what i'm talking about. but perhaps i can use it in this scenario aswell. i'm trying to defend myself from slipping into an irreturnable place of depression. defending those i love, from the radical thoughts that run through my head, inadvertantly dragging them into my depression with me.

i have been off medication for a while now. i've been able to keep my brain at harbor for a bit over 2 years. a feat that i am quite proud of, personal therapy and lack of drug dependancy is extremely gratifying. but something this month has triggered, to date, two weeks of sleepless nights, and monumental headaches throughout the day for months. i think much too much, as all people who know me well can attest. when i get in this "funk" you can be assured 100% that i've multiplied thinking times 10. i'm at the point now where nothing makes sense and all i want to do is sleep. everything is bad. and i'm finding it harder lately to be amusing, or amused by anything. it is not a good place to be.

humor really is the key to life. and i've managed to maintain this for 2 years now. starting this blog, was a new version of therapy for me. writing things down, or for this matter, typing things out, helps me clear thoughts from my head, let's me go back to them and later make jokes about it. even in writing this, confronting what my problem is, i've actually written, and re-written these paragraphs numerous times. a similar process as to what is going on in my head right now.

i am having a hard time sharing thoughts about what i'm thinking. because i don't know what kind of level of understanding you all have with this problem. i'm apologizing in advance if you get in my path of random insanity, it really has nothing to do with you. i'll get over it. you shouldn't pay any mind.

more birthday wishes...

and his chinese birthday next week. right. chinese birthday.

just for your information, today is my filipino birthday. and same with tomorrow. and maybe the day after that because i haven't decided yet. but 02.19.05 that's my hawaiian birthday.

rack up the parties.

spread the word.

it's a year-round event!

karaoke mania

family reunion + magic mic = the longest night EVER experienced.

that's right i'm talking about you

you know that guy that did that thing that got us all mad after that day? yah he bothers me. or what about that girl! oh my god that girl! so disappointing, everytime something like that happens she reacts like there is no tomorrow, and then totally flips out because there IS a tomorrow and then starts the vicious cycle all over again? what a crazy biatch!

blog anonymity seems to play with people's minds.....this is me playing! only the crazies will think this is about them.

Hi Crazy!

PB p.II

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ok to continue on...

• nicktiomary got married
  congratulations to them! wedding was this weekend. nothing but the best for them. pictures up soon.

ha! only one point to finish off my continuation...will be writing more soon tho. much happenned on the weekend.

spread it like peanut butter....

or margarine for that matter, i'm allergic! ha! i've been a busy girl lately and i apologize. getting my life organized is a difficult task especially when i had so many thoughts running around.

things that have happenned since my last post:

• mafu's birthday (that birthday post didn't really count)
  up lounge is nice...cougarrrrRRrtastic! their menu is "shady death" but i enjoyed my burnt chicken sandwhich that had no fries because they cook with peanut oil. for the love of chocolate people!! jump on the safe and healthy eating bandwagon already! the surprise worked out absolutely lovely, and alan was pimpmatic, i think it was a great night for all especially the poopy putter!
  
• halau hula o'walea recital
  i miss hula...even more so now. no more sitting in the audience. next year i dance! get yOself prepared. aloha hula sisters!
  
• CANADA day
  chicago cousin was in town we took the hike of a lifetime!! why the asthmatics, the smokers, and the asthmatic smokers ventured along will forever be a mystery. but i have two sun-toasted shoulders to remind me to think about it all summer long. fireworks on the rocks was great times! drama queen was....drama, was not expecting anything else. from the c02 toss to loi singin' on a rock by herself to the canadian festival of fire display, all in all it was an excellent time. oh yes, crack kills and always save the whales!
  
• marcus farcus' birthday
  my personal favorite event, how can u resist a tipsy marc?? ha ha! friends, pool, drinks, food, and 28 shots later....
  
  
• +brainwaves redesign
  took a shot at trying to rearrange another blog template. god help me...i'm leaving it as is now. well at least until i get bored again :P
  
• BBQ season started...
  and in my household that means...it's BBQ all the time! all the time! any reason to have a BBQ?? come on over we can hook you up! let's expect this to continue until we've all burned our eyebrows off and there's snow on the ground..

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